CJ Luzi - Better Than Before lyrics

Outside it's rainin, my roof is leaking Inside where pain is, so the truth is speaking Little did they know in that one level ranch Cracks would form All of our hearts would beat to the devil's dance All these thoughts are like a plague In my mind, eating away I swear to god, I never escaped Not with d**h, not with age Judge by my cover, be my guest Everyone's rip the page out I never amount to nothin, so that means there's nothing to say about this World I'm livin' in, never see dividends Moment I get ahead, I'm thinking about giving in Give it in, your inheritance, and a picture with some evidence Riding on lifes highway with a pair of 10s How do you not believe me? Can you see me? Hear me it's so time, how you supposed to leave me Please stay, I sell everything I own On ebay, the xbox and tv, yeah you need me I'm doing better, better than before And I wrote you this letter, but I left it on the floor Saying I don't even miss you, don't need you no more Cause I'm doing better, better than before Better than before What you're supposed to do when your dad's about to over dose? In a hotel room free basing his way to a comatose My mom's been mailing letters to the Oprah show With all the empty rolls of stamps is how you know we broke We can't deal with the prblems of being stuck on the bottom So we go and grab the bottle And I gotta ask myself, am I the common factor? That everything I grab or hold falls to the ground and shatters? Or maybe, I'm not I doubt it's the latter everything I chase after Turns around and runs backwards, it's a hazard My drywall is cardboard windows made of saran wrap All I'm trying to do is build this home and see your hands clap So much words unspoken, tired of being broken Heal me I need a potion, why can't I feel emotions? Anymore I'm frozen, lately I've been so f**ing numb Where this paralysis coming from, I don't know, I'm f**ing done Take a look at me now, take a look at me now I'm doing better, better than before And I wrote you this letter, but I left it on the floor Saying I don't even miss you, don't need you no more Cause I'm doing better, better than before Better than before