[Intro: ?] I am God..spoken good We've lost it all, the love is gone She has won, now it's no fun We've lost it all, the love is gone.. [Verse 1: CinoS] Look: self-mutilation, surrounded in starvation, public humiliation You'll never know what we face when iodine the lips and the brain I can barely remember my name, my mind is going insane Head-first in a pile of c**aine So deranged, hurt, and confused Broke, cold, and abused It seems I was born to lose and society seems amused But why not, they lied to me Rape victims have cried to me, murderers confide in me All my friends cut ties to me So let my sins soak, let my soul rise Only one option: suicide I been there and I tried twice Slit wrists, I applied ice Cyanide in the cold Sprite, I smoked dreams in this meth pipe I can't lie, at one time, it felt awesome But now that I walk alone, is there any more room in that coffin? Out of control, black hole, and nobody plans to stop me I put my trust in God's hands, he dropped me.. [Hook: ?] And we tried..oh, how we cried We lost ourselves, the love is dried And oh, we tried, you and I We left a chance, we lost the fight [Verse 2: CinoS] Look: Our future shade of grey, I look to a darker day Just tell me why we we're lied to, why were we left astray? All work, with nothin' to gain, body immersed in pain Diplomas covered in blood, I look to the sky (make it rain) So many things that never were said, bullets that's filled with lead Skeletons in my closet, heels up under my bed I swear to the sword above my head, damn, shouldn't I be dead? The strategy was blasphemy, entangled in Charlotte's web You treat us like we're diseased, you put me in quarantine Then you expect me to plead, drop to my knees, and pray in need? But f** no, that's tribal, no I won't stay idle I'll rip pages out of this Bible, 'til you tell me why you are my idol But, I'm so broken, they offer me A chance at a new life is what they're offering I'm feeling so strong, it's radical Cash down, that's practical, the power is just too magical.. [Hook: ?] And we-e-e-e-e-e had magic And thi-i-i-i-i-i-s is tragic You could keep you.. And we-e-e-e-e-e had magic And thi-i-i-i-i-i-s is tragic You couldn't keep your hands to yourself [Talking: CinoS] Ok, thirteenth order, chapter one; understanding the three rings: power, self, and chaos He, he controls chaos, owns, the ultimate power [Talking: ?] I believe the Chaos Theory in psychology is not that different from uh-uh-uh-uh physics in the point Except they have [???] component Um, chaos basically says: can we make a long-term predication of any kind of a system? If I'm afraid of, uh, being mugged in New York City walking down the street, I will become very, very cautious As I become cautious, I become a target Therefore, I am inviting the very thing that I'm afraid of So yes, I think that chaos, uh, and the fear of chaos, actually invites more chaos [Outro: ?] I feel like the world's been infected And somehow you left me neglected We found our lives been changed, babe You lost me..