Cian Ducrot - fucked up all the time lyrics

I'm so sick of feeling so fu*ked up all the time feel like I'm living someone else's life I'm in the car on my way home So I cry when no one knows Ever since I was little I dreamt of a good life I'd find a good wife settle by the seaside I'm losing hope But no one knows Feel like every day I'm losing friends That we're meant to be Sharing laughs with the no ones sat next to me Why is it so fu*king hard to grow up And it's always easy from a distance Like to think that I can make it But the closer I get closer, I get hurt And it's always easy When you fake it Convince yourself that you can make it But through all the growing pains I'll never learn Never learn Maybe you're the reason I'm fu*ked up all the time And I don't need to fight Or spend all my time with you Why do I look for your approval to think that I'm right when I know that you're wrong And you don't need to stay for a while But I know you won't hold me tight Damn I wish you would hold me tight Feels like every day I'm losing friends That we're meant to be Sharing laughs with the no ones sat next to me Why is it so fu*king hard to grow up And do what's expected of me And it's always easy from a distance Like to think that I can make it But the closer I get closer, I get hurt And it's always easy When you fake it Convince yourself that you can make it But through all the growing pains I'll never learn Never learn But would you stay Would you stay Would you stay Would you stay And I know that it's hard for you when it looks like I'm falling apart But would you stay Would you stay