Church - Now I Wonder Why lyrics

In a moment of triumph, I find defeat uncontrolled In the second of honor, a despair sharp and old She gives me a taste, please show me some etiquette I wasn't looking for you and I don't want to find you yet At an uncurtained window, in a street full of rooms Watching the gardens, and pursuing the blooms This world is so white, they never see me anymore But I trusted you then, and I'm trusting you still It's just that I'm not quite sure Now I wonder why, I thought I could ever lose But the gain is hardly what I'd choose Now I wonder why It was somebody, a woman, it was a delicate crime And I've been waiting for ages, yes I've been here all the time There was this greed in my blood, she let me take the easy way She helps me hide the vagabond, that was myself yesterday And after the acting, I found that I couldn't sleep And during my drifting, I found that I was too deep By the virtue of faith I knew that I could be lost Beyond this dark place Unprepared to pay the cost