Chino Xl - Heavenly Father lyrics

Yo.Yeah [Hook] Heavenly father I need some direction in my life Heavenly father I apologize I'm just trying to make things right Heavenly father I never had a father down here to show me how Right now, Right now, Right now, Right now, I need you Right now I need you, Right now, I need you right now [Chino XL] How could I just send them away (I miss my daughters man) The question is what kind of daddy? (for real) I just put them on a plane when I promised I would stay With them forever till the end of my days (My decisions) I deserve to be shot in my chest Trying to put it back together like A Tribe Called Quest (yes) Deep down in the depths, of my spirit I can feel it They will never quite forgive it, they thought daddy was perfect (nope) I had to make the time worth it That's why as an artist and a man I have finally scratched the surface (ok) Twelve years straight with my babies I even left the business just to raise my little ladies (that's crazy) Life had my burnt out Sorry I couldn't stay with your mom it just couldn't work out (Uh-Uh) When she left us all alone and it was just us three I had to send you to my mama to work, I'm sorry [Hook] [Chino XL] It should have never got this far but it did (Uh-Uh) I got feelings for you are you sure you wanna have this kid? (Come on) It's already growing in your tummy, and you're so beautiful But do not say you love me (do not) That was the deal when I started falling for you; you had already fallen for me I swear I never knew (At all) In hindsight I'm probably a fool not to notice, too busy rapped up in this showbiz Plus you was his (yeah) But when he went away to do his bid, and didn't even write you You called me for advice's (Why?) You called me to put money on his books; he was my man so of course I just ignored your looks (completely) Now my mind's ruined you're such a woman, I got attracted to your movements I'm so wrong To my homie when you hear this song you're right to hate me I call your girl mommy cause she having my baby (what have I done?) [Hook] Yo.Yo [Chino XL] You cut your hand I cut my hand that Indian tradition Momma threw me out the crib, you gave a place to live in I gave you empty promises, the streets gave you d** We was blood brothers and sh** I just turn my back and run I couldn't deal with seeing you so strung-out (nope) Giving you money k**ed you slow I see that now (yeah) I ain't even been back to the hood in quite a while Soon as my plane touched down I find it hard to smile (uh.) You fathered a child that's my goddaughter Jesus She's so big and pretty you wouldn't believe this How she get a raspy voice just like yours How you crash and flip three times in that Honda accord (How?) You was high outta your mind on dust and weed Police lights flashing behind you as you speed Memories of us rollin pennies just to get to NYC on a train to get a deal for me See It was your decision to go a different way I think about it every day, but now your mind gone Can't talk and you breathing on life support as I pull the cord I'm asking the lord ..God forgive me [Hook]