Children Of Fall - Halfhearted lyrics

My heart is beating though at times I find it hard to believe. I'm not who I used to be, but the more I change the more I stay the same. Now I'm just trying to decide whether I'm better off. If I have any regrets I think I do There's something wrong, but I can't focus on it, just another brick in the wall. It's beyond control, or maybe I just want it to be, at least give me something to mourn. The status quo, is it mine? My heart is beating in time with what I once knew to be false. Old promises I made myself are too easily forgotten now. What I'm desperate for is any distinction between myself and my enviroment. I swear most of the time it feels like we are one and the same.