Charlotte Martin - On Your Shore (live) lyrics

I dig my heels into the dirt 'Cause this one's gonna hurt Won't let the waves wash me away Is what I always pray In my heart I know you couldn't see In the dark or find your way through me Now I'm alone, my hands are numb How do I carry on? At the turn of the tide I feel this part of me die Am I washed on your shore and barely alive? Now I'm held hostage in my head With every word you said God, all those lessons in my past I spit them out so fast I see myself with you, I act so small I see myself with you, I always crawl So someone leave a raft for me The water's getting deep At the turn of the tide I feel this part of me die Am I washed on your shore and barely alive? Here I am in my insecurity Here I am in my damaged dignity Here I am, you're pulling me in too deep Here I am Here I am, I'm in the mercy seat Here I am, running without my feet Here I am, oh what's come over me? Here I am When I was melting in your hand You didn't understand You slip through me like grains of sand You still don't understand Overboard, I'm thrown out to see What you are and what I mean to me But I will always have my dream where you can swim to me At the turn of the tide I feel this part of me die I've been on your shore before And it was no waste of time Over my head and in my mind Am I washed on your shore and barely alive?