Charlie Beans - Inside lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm a non-fiction writer in a made up world Met a friend when I was twelve who became my girl Got my headphones tangled With my heart strings mangled up This our thing hope that they uncurl Nobody told me that a lesson learned Is that a fire from afar isn't a threat to you unless it burns So if you touch it, then it's your fault Questioning that last call Happy hour half off Now I think it might have played right Now I'm trying to stay private A'int got nothing to say about it I'm not a drifter, I'm a recluse I'm the boy who cried wolf and then regretted being rescued This world is pretty fun when you're young Then you grow and everyone you know turns numb I'm an unloaded gun Waiting on the sun Thinking about today and what I've done [Chorus] And I don't want to go outside I only feel safe in here Can't tell you just how much I've tried To let go and escape my fear I just want to stay inside I'm afraid of the way that people make me feel I just want to stay inside Outside of my mind I never know whats real I just want to stay inside [Verse 2] Now I can never fall asleep without a helper A little gin and lime, mix it with some seltzer Tell the voices in my head to take the night off Let me get a little rest, no need for light talk I feel crippled by consistent self resistance I try to shake it off, it isn't an existence World got me by the throat I can't do it on my own The future and anxiety, ahead to the unknown And all I wanna do is write a happy song A party anthem for the audience to clap along But I'm a tagalong Mind is like a vagabond Life's so boring everyday I'm just getting dragged along And all I wanna do is shut down And all I wanna do is shut down Can't handle even one more sound Got a feeling that they'll always be around [Chorus] And I don't want to go outside I only feel safe in here Can't tell you just how much I've tried To let go and escape my fear I just want to stay inside I'm afraid of the way that people make me feel I just want to stay inside Outside of my mind I never know whats real I just want to stay inside I just want to stay inside I just want to stay inside