Chandeliers of Mars - How to lament lyrics

I still reach for the back door whenever I see you in the room Can no longer face you No longer retain you, set you free to shoot you down, just so I could carry and raise you Raised an essence for evading words such like love Caught in a trap of a stampede of rhinos in a curve Either I crash with 'em or alone, mute calls are the hardest to respond I've been aching to burn your heart With the pa**ionate feeling I've outgrown But all I received is hatred, abstinence and impatience So long my lover, I just hope the kisses don't develop into my snake's friend Seduced by carnal desires, still loved you way beyond my motherf**ing expectations I expected to be replaced not to be left with the lizards in the basement How's it supposed to work when being left has been perfectly bar coded? I stimulate your veins, hoping your blood fiends for me My mind's so confused with these frozen archetype allegories One says you're a winner the other says you lost the woman you was hunting Heartache mixed headache and a whole other ache disorders This is just my last breath this is just my last breath, after this no longer am I recording Dehumanized I barely feel nothing, I barely feel nothing So non-communicated, isn't a surprise if anything turnt ugly I'm good at the start, I changed depending on your attitude or whatever you call that personality It all died after 4 months, but the spell still works in my reach, the spell still works in my reach Vulnerability exposed with a seventh sense of a repeat I rip your heart open to see if I can find me Struggled for an answer, you let me fall like winter before spring Hardcore like a sweating back jack hammering athlete You let me runaway and that wasn't some coincidence or some past fortune accolade It was all different by the time you held my hand down the burning sun I was you, you was me, perfect as one You was my mindset, I was your violent unraveled gun You was my motive, I was your only flaw I break promises? Never never never never never never never done Maybe was a distortion from the dark The light can be apparent, but the darkness creates solipsism beneath your own thoughts Left has become a common word Left that left this, leaving has become popular like falling is the best season to occur Spring it's always alright but the 28's of February let myself lost In the shades or gray skies for a long forbidden farm k**ing hope beneath your own words I love you, you hate me more Left is more of a right decision once the door doesn't open anymore Doesn't stay open like before But who am I to question you? You're as complicated as my own thoughts You're as vibrant as my own flaws I can't posses you, but somehow I am yours Somehow I am still your guard don't low for us You've been good at making me do the dirty work Fiddling with my feelings with dust No matter what else was done for you was never enough But leaving was pretty enough