Cayden - 5AM In Manhattan lyrics

[Verse - Cayden] "k** them all Cayden," that's what my demons said Sometimes your worst enemy is living in your head Sometimes I wonder how her life would be if I was dead How her life would've turned out if we had never met But f** it, you can't change the past Even if I could, sh**, I'd probably love your a** Remember the night, yeah, you went and pulled a knife Told me that I f**ed you over once, I'd never get to twice I took it from your hand, you hit the ground crying Told me if I left you, you'd end up dying And what did I do? I left your a** for a party And still to this day, I've never said I'm f**ing sorry They want to hear me say it, I wouldn't really mean it; This music is my therapy, I'll take it intravenous They told me that they love me, why did I believe it? They left me with no legs to stand on, quadriplegic See, I've been lying for so long, dying with no songs Sometimes I feel like I'm in the right to be so wrong I rock with the lights on and f** with the lights off Because smiles buy love and I don't care what your life costs Handle my business, Crawford with the cross You thought we made love because I hit it deep like Randy Moss See, I just run deep and bust in your face The cops bust in the place with guns slung from the waist They try to hit me with the love charges, but they don't ever stick See, I'm a dog and I get away, no Michael Vick I'm the one, was I chosen? Since the days I threw down 10, like DeRozan I was stuck on d**, but I'm clean now Birdman Andersen, drug addict on the rebound f** them if they're hating, f** them if they're not Because attention is all I've f**ing got