Caskey - TheTruth lyrics

[Intro] Ay yo this one for my old man, miss you This "The Truth" part 1 Ay yo I been having trouble going to sleep at night lately I just I guess I got a lot on my mind, yeah [Verse] Maybe they just don't understand where I'm coming from damn Been alone, age seventeen, life's in my hand Grab the phone like, "What up homie tell me something positive Cause God damn, life been feeling like it's the apocalypse" Real sh**, I need progression I still spit But something bout this rap game left me with steel fists Boxing, these cats worst than some toxins, lot of janky sh** Deadweight motherf**ers trying to anchor this, I can't have it I been sailing ships every since them days out at seas with my father God damn I miss it sh** missed you for a minute, my hardest times I ain't go forget it He told me play the game smart that was the beginning Probably should of listened harder cause a lot of things missing A lot of things different, a lot of complication but my mission still the same And I'm in it til' I'm filling in a grave, these days feel I'm in a maze Everybody want the cheese, but don't really want the taste It's bitter-sweet, I'm outside in this k**er heat Probably got some k**ers contemplating bout k**ing me But f** it the though, my girl ask why I'm ducking so Whenever this troll pull by, I say, "It's nothing ho" But damn, she call me out clam I'm bluffing so I cut it short Say, "The topic ain't up for discussion folk" It's cold, but so is my heart, and really I mean froze Cause my mother never really like the path that I had choose And farther choose a path that left us both Staring at the ceiling like where the f** he go I'm praying to my pops, and ain't never spoke back And people got the never to ask me why I smoke that Or ask D why the f** he in a dope trap, trying to get paid And theses streets ain't got a lot of ways Especially when living as a black man I understood that Cause I been out of place yeah trying to rap damn, and that's the facts In vain the world was born in it, If God made it why he put so many storms in it And all these women got a lot of babies born When the f** did seventeen as a mother become a norm, I contemplated walking to my dorm Same time thinking bout a college that I can't afford, I'm struggling My mom clam that it's necessary, my suffering But nothing necessary bout me loving it Half her paycheck steady going to the government And all she do is teach, how the f** they expect us to eat supper Yo and who the f** is God, and how come he don't speak to me Some say he in my head, really trying to speak through me Sound like some bullsh**, taking all the credit Use to love the church, I ain't trying to say that I regret it Just wised up visualized my life, individualized In all the clone sh** got me feeling simplified Been on my own ship building me a enterprise Got to take the time to initialize, this could be the end time Don't know if I'll end the sky or if I'm a end up chilling at the world center I'm In this game of life trying to make myself a winner But I'm looking like some beef to these cats wanting dinner So I'm questioning a lot God sh** its not that I don't believe, just trying to keep track I just think it's f**ed up that you don't never speak back Like why the f** I'm here praying on my knees that I can get a buzz inside the streets that'll make me just a little bit A little is all I'm needing to survive, and why When I needed a farther he just needed to get high I'm crying cause my sister in the same boat Swimming in the same water, hanging on the same rope And I'm doing all I can trying to keep my fam float But these hands only do so much mane I hope, that's why I learn to cover with the smoke And escape to another place, in another world where I'm straight And f** these hatters trying to hate If they want it they can get it but they getting in my way Cause I be talking bout more than getting paid But they said I wasn't deep enough that's all I got to say