Caskey - Lose Myself lyrics

[Chorus] I ain't trying to lose myself to this famous sh** I be on one thinking bout' how I really need to change my sh** Look around everything so shallow Waking up everyday is a battle Make anybody wanna throw the towel [Verse 1] Yea, not me, looking in the mirror I see The man right in front of me say I got I T They try to stop the wave I'm riding til' I'm godspeed You know the time, you know that all that talk n' sh** Made me work overtime, They wait for it to happen Me I had to go get mine, I swear my work ethic insane And I overgrind, So when they hatin' on my accolades I never mind People talk sh** cause it's way too easy It's much harder to apply yourself and try to beat me Yea, so I never ever ever base my happiness on the comments I'm just working on myself, going harder like I promised When your fuse getting low, when your smoking so much And you escape with the dro, when you're spending every night inside a different liquor store, When you're driving on The highway drunk, and you know, that you know better That you know yea, that you know better, yea that you know That you can't escape the places in your mind that you go [Chorus 2] I ain't trying to lose myself to this famous sh** I be on one thinking bout' how I really need to change my sh** Seem like all these people so shallow Everyday waking up everyday is a battle Make anybody wanna throw the towel [Verse 2] People talk about my life who don't know me I'ma ball on em, leave my legacy and dip like Kobe (swish) If you're tryna hold me down, then I'll say you gotta show me When you startin to get success, everything gets lonely Can you relate? Not another second I can waste Some people misinform, thinking that it's only fate It's more about the way you cooking, than what's on the plate In my momma crib on the day I lost my pops Now everyday I live, trying to get the bigger knots Sometime I be just wandering if sh** is really worth it Most people I know crumbling right underneath the surface Still give my blood, sweat, and tears I was broke for some years, I was caught up on them percs I done bury some of my peers, I done spend a lot of nights In a room with my fears, I been caught up in oppression I was blaming my career, But I know better, ya I know better Ya but you know, that you can't escape the places in your mind That you go [Chorus 3] I ain't trying to lose myself to this famous sh** I be f**ed up shawty, thinking how I really need to change my sh** Oh look around everything so shallow Waking up everyday is a battle Sometimes feel like throwing the towel But you know you know better, ya you know That you know you know better, yea that you know better ya You know, Sometimes feel like throwing in the towel Sometimes feel like all of ya'll shallow Sometimes feel like my heart hollow [Verse 3] (Jim Carrey)- "I've often said I wish people could realize all their dreams and Wealth and fame, so they could see that it's not where you're Gonna find your sense of completion" Uh my accolades is spinning 'round me, The day my father Pa**ed away, the day that music found me It's crazy how my darkest times, the ones that have allowed Me, to free my heart and soul and clear the chains that really Bound me. I use it as a lesson that everything is for reason Though that reason ain't always clear, I'm searching for meanings in my quiet time, conscious hours, focused on breathing, I just sold a script of oxycontin to someone's demons I think I'm crazy, think I'm spending time in the clubs and They need to play me, think I'm f**ing up on the scenes that I need to vacate. Wait, there I go again, with that swag flow again The same sh** that makes some fans call me sell out, cause sh** ain't dope to them, don't think they understand artistry is About opening your mind to different waves of experiments And I'm soaking in, all things subject to change Just don't talk about me like my life purpose was in vain Like I don't apply pressure to these holes in the game My creativity at high levels, then what I claim Know the path to greatness is through humility Will it be my intelligent ways, verses strength and agility there f** the world and let em' die, honor ability, know that God put me because I got the will in me, know that my Purpose here is more than just music It's about self improvement, this year I'm blowing up and Having major influence in this shallow f**ing rap game [Outro] (Jim Carrey) -"My soul is not contained, within limits of my body My body is contained within the limitlessness of my soul One unified field, one unified field, of nothing dancing for no particular reason"