Casisdead - Simon lyrics

[Verse - CAS portraying Simon] I threw my life away Night and day I pipe away Left my family feeling some type of way The powder's grey, my eyes are grey, the skies are grey I like the H, I like the yay But I'd like to say I'm different now, I'm not the same I've changed I'm no longer that man who would dig through the bins just to find some change People still walk past me in the street and say I look strange My skin's dry, my hair's matted, my clothes are covered in stains All this Methadone that I'm taking, it can't get rid of these pains It was too much for my friend *blank* he blew out his brains Wife took my kids away But I thought I saw my son just last Saturday I waved but he stared at me then looked away Could of been him, he always kept his feelings locked away Track marks down to my fist, I stink of piss I've got the sh**s and my pants have got skids It ain't true I swear I never touched them kids I was just trying to show them something, I tripped and my right hand slipped Robbed a Post Office, my only goal was to fail Swear I did it just so I could go back to jail Three square meals a day, it's my favourite hotel It's hard to use in there so I couldn't wait to get out my cell Back to grifting, shop lifting and sifting through the trash There wasn't many things that I wouldn't do for cash My lowest point was when I had to give this one dealer a bash He wasn't even a smack, he only had this tiniest bit of ash Slept in the doorway of the local Just so the local youts wouldn't catch me and stomp me out I'll cut myself so I can stay in hospital for a night It's cold outside, or at least until these shakes subside Robbed a pregnant woman's smartphone, I had to do it How do you watch TV? I can't figure out how to do it Sold it at 2:30 for 40 and by 3 I blew it It wasn't even enough, arrgh ya see I f**ing knew it I need to cure my sickness but no money for a prescription Deep in my addiction and cursed with this affliction Chances of going back to work fade with each conviction Everyone just writes you off, with such conviction The council won't house me no more, they've stopped the bedsits Kicked me out last time, I ain't slept in a bed since You would think I would have learnt from one of these f**ing lessons Instead I'm steady headed to my eventual obsolescence The light of the lord shines bright and with such fluorescence Except on me, my life's been quite unpleasant Excuse me for being depressing, how are you? How was your Xmas? Get any presents? I found some chicken breasts round the back of M&S It was freezing, I was in a dirty vest I cooked them in the corner, f**ing burnt my chest Think about my daughter and it f**ing burns my chest If I don't drink a bit of water first, it hurts my head Anyway, I digress To answer your question, yes I'll take one white and two B Those ones there look the best (Nah you can't have those ones, take this one here, that one) I'm a bit short, I'll link you back with the rest (Yeah now, give us it or f** off)