Carolyn Rodriguez - Dear Sarah lyrics

[Verse: 1 isuppose] I was looking through Facebook, then I got a message From some girl named Sarah, she was 19 and pregnant She wanted advice, 'cuz her dark nights were restless Confused and depressed, she could feel the Devil's presence But let's go back 8 months when her boyfriend was locked up She was having s** with her ex and they never used a condom And her boyfriend got outta jail and she got knocked up Not sure who was the daddy but she didn't wanna get caught up So she told 'em the truth, how she was addicted to meth She would kicking it with her ex, he forced her to have s** She described it as rape, the way he penetrated her flesh Submissive to the drug, she had no power left What she would do for a hug, her man showed her no respect All she wanted was love, but she contemplated d**h Then the only remedy was the smell of tweak on her breath She was on her path to hell, taking some large steps And as I listened to her story I get this pain in my heart So I asked a few questions and she took me back to the start When she was 3, her mother left her, tore her family apart Mama was a needle addict, daddy didn't care at all So she smokes to numb the pain, it's been days since she slept But since Sarah got pregnant, she had to put the pipe to rest She wrote down deep rhymes to get the stress off her chest And I swear I almost cried when I heard what she did next [Hook: Carolyn Rodriguez] You run away, and try to numb the pain 'Cuz when you've lost your faith And what remains is just a piece of who you used to be So abused, bruised and beat ''?'' [Verse: 2 isuppose] She was 4 months pregnant, aggravated with life Her bright days turned dark, her heart was blind to the light She was sad and confused, couldn't make it through the stripe Had nobody to turn to, so she turned to the pipe She smoked crystal for two months, hardly ever missed a night Every day she battled demons, these times she lost the fight She had a baby in her stomach, then she gripped the pipe's sight And hailing d**h, every hit was a sacrifice But she kept it a secret, she was f**ed up mentally Neglected her soul, 'cuz her inner self was her enemy So she turned to the music, favourite rapper was REVERIE She used to bump her songs and used it as life therapy But things got worse after a few small breaks Now she's back to smoking gla**, white smoke on her face Now she's 8 months pregnant, still no hope of faith She feels like she'll never survive her cold days There's a blizzard in her heart, slowly k**ing her child Now sitting, wondering if Sarah will ever get to see her smile As she's telling me the story I, pause for a while 'cuz she just got done smoking and her mind's running wild And a part of me wants to throw her a** of a building But I was an addict too, so I understand the illness So I told her how I felt and I gave her nothing but the realness And made it into a song, so that everyone could feel this [Hook: Carolyn Rodriguez] You run away, and try to numb the pain 'Cuz when you've lost your faith And what remains is just a piece of who you used to be So abused, bruised and beat ''?'' [Verse: 3 isuppose] ''Dear Sarah, I'm sorry but just know you're not alone And I know its tough when you gotta survive on your own To be honest I was kinda mad when we spoke on the phone It broke my heart knowing you were pregnant and still getting blown I was an addict too, and I know it's hard to take control But you're about to have a baby so think with your heart and soul There's moms who lose their babies never get to see them grow I could've lost my life too when I was four years old You gotta take care of yourself, do it for your son Do it for everyone who believes you can become, a great mother You see your mom decided to run So don't give your the kid the pain your mom gave you when you were young You're doing a few weeks, I wish your baby could help 'Cuz you were blessed with an angel, yet you put him through hell Everytime your baby kicked, he was asking for help And you were selfish everytime, only thought about yourself But I didn't write this song to try to make you feel guilty 'Cuz we all make mistakes, I just hope that you feel me See it's never too late to cleanse the soul when it's filthy I'm just trying to help you k** the drug that wanted to k** me And this song is probably gonna get hated on by many The ones who don't understand what it's like to feel empty But I'm here if you need me, until then, God bless your soul And God bless your son Love always - isuppose'' [Hook: Carolyn Rodriguez] You run away, and try to numb the pain 'Cuz when you've lost your faith And what remains is just a piece of who you used to be So abused, bruised and beat ''?''