if this is all part of some plan if this is all part of some game if this is some self affirming notion if this is all exactly what i think it is our phobias are the only conversation i dont want to say anything right now smoke gets in your eyes and loose hairs fall into a gla** of water without ice it's giving you a stomachache which comes as no surprise when you say that your head is throbbing or how tired that you are now loneliness has turned into a desperate thing i dont want to think about that now