Cardinals Pride - Marrow lyrics

Slow and unconscious destruction of my body through abuse I’m drowned in systematic conflict avoidance A subdued picture marred by neglect I am confined in self-loathing I’ve chosen naivety as a camouflage Hiding something darker than simple disagreement I can only find relief in insensitivity And I’m tired of fighting against what makes me sick inside I won’t let this feeling define who I am I won’t let this define me I refuse to dig my own grave straight from this cave that I was raised in I won’t betray my way, I won’t forget the reason I’m here It makes me sick inside That I’m enslaved in insensitivity I’m sick and tired of fighting again Like a monster among men I’m distant, I’m an outcast Is the tree I used to admire just as weak as I am? I need an outlet to disappear Because I am sick in my head Sick of it all Insensitivity has become my only relief I refuse to dig my own grave straight from this cave that I was raised in I won’t betray my way, I won’t forget the reason I’m here Maybe somehow this is what I deserve Grasp my spine and pull as hard as you can Pull the marrow from my bones Watch the sickness evaporate Pull the marrow from my bones And purge the curse of my existence Sink the needle through my skin Ink my shoulders with the blood of our wounds as the raft we've built drifts away In no specific direction