Canis Major - Surrender lyrics

[Verse 1: Sam Mackey] I take a breath and count to ten But even then I feel the obsession Coming its creeping in Upon its arrival I take one last look Memories scrapped in a book For what its worth I tried I don't have a choice Now that's a f**ing lie For what will I go the distance Run so there's no witness Man I know you hear these words But I don't think you listen Drag my body to the dirt So I can rest and have the rest of my family hurt Fill me up with ambition Take away this obsession Insanity has swallowed me down to my knees I don't know how to give in so god please Here is I surrender No longer trying to win as a contender God pray for her I hear as I walk down the street They're all staring at me Cause I can't help these tears running down my cheek [Verse 2: Sam Mackey] I drag my feet across the concrete My body is heavy I'm beat Show me how to live I repeat Again and again Take another step and then I fall hard to the ground Don't want to be seen don't want to be found Leave me be this is where I belong, laying on the street What's my name? What the hell do I believe? Ready to give in, I scream for help Arms wrapped tight knees to chest Stripped my armor, just my child is left No protection He whispers, "The needle is your weapon." No I'm fighting the thought My body tenses up I don't want to die! Harder and harder I cry Take one last look at the sky And there she is, I see her eyes My body stops the fight She helps me rise Hugs me tight Sam, everything Is going to be alright