Canis Major - 95 South lyrics

[Verse 1: IOweKnee] Who would have thought the quiet kid would be so good with his words It's absurd how preferred I can be when I'm heard Heard the kids back home setting fire to the churches Faith's in Rock 'n Roll, get their sermons in the verses Don't know who they are, but don't wanna be themselves Wanna be somebody else, never needing no ones help We're disconnected But can I call this home when the only thing I've known Is how to find the closest road outta town I'm not around and I know it Last year was my lowest Got a vulnerable side and I can't afford to show it This next line Ima blow it Land minds in my mind, these are enemy lines that I'm behind Doing fine, only problem is time Found pa**ion with this rapping, this magic is everlasting Cooking beats to satisfaction, counting stacks of Andrew Jacksons Man I'm doing it, like I always said I would Funny how I got street smart the day I left the hood So [Chorus 1] I don't want to die, I just want to live better I just need to know that this Hell won't last forever 95 South, Ima pace myself Looking for the right words to save myself I don't want to die, I just want to live better I just need to know that this Hell won't last forever I'm a Nomad [Verse 2] And I don't want to die, I just want to live better I just need to know that this Hell won't last forever I lost a lot of sleep in a bed that was made for me I'll never learn to breathe in the city that had strangled me Never going back, I'll never forget the facts I'll never relive the past, nah, I'm never going back Nights I won't forget are nights that they won't remember Which means that I'm sleeping better knowing some things last forever Thinking 'bout those nights, Meteora on my walkman Always knew Shinoda's part, but I just called it rock then Lights low, eyes closed, dreaming of arenas Long before he held a microphone or knew where it would lead him Now I step on stage and I k** 'em like a deadline Hardest act to follow so I guess that's why I headline Had to put 'em through it cause my life move fast It's hard to stay grounded when you stunt first cla** Said it's hard to stay grounded when you stunt in first cla** [Chorus 2] I don't want to die, I just want to live better I just need to know that this Hell won't last forever 95 South, Ima pace myself Looking for the right words to save myself I don't want to die, I just want to live better I just need to know that this Hell won't last forever I'm a Nomad [Verse 3] Reminiscing with Lindsay Rae 'bout better days in the summer time Sipping winter wines, eating good like dinner time That's when I was starving, when my broken soul was lost Now I'm overworked and distant, always tied up like a boss But I've been so determined to prove that I'm not my burdens I'm focused on words that hurt em, sipping tea and staying Kermit These are just some thoughts I would keep in my head But I'm sick of writing songs filled with words I should have said And I don't understand why the truth can't save me Screaming out, "k** me" to the same God that made me I'm tired of the "maybes", a promise drives me crazy A shot don't cut it, half the bottle don't phase me I know the serpents lurking to mistake what I said And when I make it without faking they'll all wanna be friends But you won't be where I'm going if you ain't seen where I've been So everyday that I write is another night that I live I'm gone [Chorus 3] I don't want to die, I just want to live better I just need to know that this Hell won't last forever 95 South, Ima pace myself Looking for the right words to save myself I don't want to die, I just want to live better I just need to know that this Hell won't last forever I'm a Nomad [Outro] Life is a joke and I just don't get it It's not f**ing poetry if "f**" ain't in it 95 South, Ima pace myself Looking for the right words to save myself I'm not very happy and it's starting to show I'm not suicidal, I'm just ready to go