Calm - Envy lyrics

I just need to focus I just need you to focus and it all starts now I envy you therefore envy is my sin It seems that envy has taken control over me I am cast aside, because never was my pride the issue Theres no way to mask what ive been through Watch it all fall apart I will never I will never I will never again Look , im brought to self affliction You smell like sweet d**h Choking me with my own depression All of this time all I wanted is to feel alive Please some one help me I will never I will never I will never again I envy you therefore envy is my sin Sin. Sinner You can take my life I hope in the end you will miss me when I am gone Reflect on the past we had, now im all alone Its not that I don't care my love I truly do Life has brought only pain, with an exception The exception of you Within my envy, within my envy, within my envy grows I will never I will never I will never again Will I ever again know why? Now you see that there's d**h in my eyes I am the one I despise Take my f**ing life