Calm (US) - Envy lyrics

I just need to focus. I just need you to focus and it all starts now. I envy you therefore envy is my sin. It seems that envy has taken control over me. I am cast aside, because never was my pride the issue. Theres no way to mask what ive been through. Watch it all fall apart. I will never I will never I will never again. Look , im brought to self affliction. You smell like sweet d**h. Choking me with my own depression. All of this time all I wanted is to feel alive. Please some one help me. I will never I will never I will never again. I envy you therefore envy is my sin. Sin. Sinner. You can take my life. I hope in the end you will miss me when I am gone. Reflect on the past we had, now im all alone. Its not that I don't care my love. I truly do. Life has brought only pain, with an exception. The exception of you. Within my envy, within my envy, within my envy grows. I will never I will never I will never again. Will I ever again know why? Now you see that there's d**h in my eyes. I am the one I despise. Take my f**ing life.