Calenraps - Trenches lyrics

{verse 1} Travel ban throughout the land, didn’t get a chance to visit It’s crazy how much things can change in just a span of minutes My family dealing with some things, but sh*t what family isn’t? Couldn’t pay his rent, the pandemic took his family’s business Now you could quit and tell your kids that santa canceled christmas Or you can grind cause somebody got to man the trenches And as a man it’s mandatory that i grant the wishes of everyone depending on me A bandage to some damaged b*tches The type of girl that break your heart and then demand forgiveness Who always claim she understands but then she stands against it And i had framed all those photos i scanned and printed But my heart still hangs onto emotions that my camera didn’t Damn i miss it, thought we’d grow together but expanded different Finally found myself and i don’t care cause my companion missing Can’t no one get close to me, my siblings and my parents distant Panicked then you vanished and i can’t find the advantage in it Eventually i’ll be the man to meet your standard limits Here to help you manage when you stranded and your {?} All my life, i ain’t held nothing in my hand this vivid as that feeling we would hold inside back when the chance existed Damn, i guess it’s over for real I’m still surprised that you left although you told me you will Cause i kept on holding inside the sh*t you chose to reveal I think what hurts me most is that i know how you feel {verse 2} I’ll always be your soldier mama ‘member what i told you mama You could put your struggles on my shoulders now, i’m older mama Both of us been waiting on the day that i get sober mama But i’ve been rolling doja mama, tryin’ keep composure mama Bank account low cause ain’t no shows or no promoters mama Only stayed afloat because you know i got that motor mama Day that i stopped growing, gave up working on my floater mama Studio my focus, ain’t gon’ stop until i’m goated mama You know where i hold you mama, middle of my heart forever Tryna find my wife is hard cause next to you she hardly measure Think i got my confidence from times you called me smart and clever No it ain’t my pops, he gets no props, that ni**a call me never Used to never think about the past but now it’s partly pleasure Flashing back before we fell apart and it was all together Darkness in my heart my chest is started with a sparkle treasure Lost it all in parts to every broad i gave a partial effort Now i’m on my own when i’m alone i’m prone to fall from pressure Never been too good at anything that might involve forever Praying i evolve to not revolve around this awful weather I’ll be better…or whatever