C4 Productions - Jealous lyrics
[Verse 1: EAGLEBABEL] June Twenty Sixteen makes number three of the graduations that pa**ed right past me n***a I'm the bear on the cover of that '03 three album but Ye never did it this cla**y It's no words actually, what this place meant to me Before To Pimp a Butterfly taught me exodus mentally All I knew was fantasies, A's, gray skies on King Drive Cali was the muhf**in victory How the f** I ended clutchin my soul is a mystery If theft was an entity I would call it the industry And if I don't sign my identity to Hollywood or Ivy Leagues then obviously the credit ain't meant for me But G, I gave this eighteen years, eighteen years Me and the dream I was chasin' were over eighteen years Me and mama almost lost our baby to a jury of no peers Gave me a story and no fear, and new ears that would listen I ain't jealous [Verse 2: Eli Arbor] I wanted to be you when I got here But y'all was facing vodka and I was wearin dockers That were too short for my big a**, in a big cla** Y'all was makin all heads turn, n***a: Whiplash And steps past these n***as with less cla** While my past was the mark that held me back I had a target on my cap, that I carried coast to coast So I kept my head down like I was eating with the pope I seen the stars in the eyes when ya names brought up They celebrate the potential of ya product Like you were really the product, and I wanted to buy But I was always a loan, so why would I try? Silent nights I was prone Y'all was turnt to eleven, young wild and irreverent Irrelevance and embarra**ment seemed to be my penance I wanted to be cool, but what's an edge kid supposed to do at parties with music he f**in hates? Girls he couldn't date (And n***as who f**in fake Grinnin all in his face) [EAGLEBABEL:] Like the truth is hidden the minute we spinnin', dippin', and dabbin' n***a I see yo tactic We was pullin out backflips in the name of our blackness We was reppin the ghettos and y'all was trippin on status n***as was bureaucratic, and it wasn't just friend groups [Eli Arbor:] It was a transaction, gossip was currency Y'all made y'all decisions before you had heard us speak Back rooms, closed doors, pools with no participants [EAGLEBABEL:] Pa**ed through only if a phone call positioned us Wore taboo like a tattoo Color Purple, Bing, 5 Blackfests and still I'm insignificant Like, what? [Eli Arbor:] Pop quiz from a starving artist Children of stop and frisk and zero tolerance policy: What's it called when you go to an Ivy League And you don't feel like you succeed They say that we "more than rappers" But I am "just a rapper" (Yes, we are "just some rappers" Yes, we are just some n***as We are from the cities with hair triggers) Where ambulances sing to the night sky And you might live or you might die [EAGLEBABEL:] And the trauma lives, so you might ride [Eli Arbor:] And a stray bullet might just hide, inside of the innocent [EAGLEBABEL] Victims of the inner-city like peace to my homie Raymond and Kevin Eyes up to the heavens, bless up I only defer to your opinion Spinnin in six years tryna convey my identity to a token black or a Jill and Jack Textbook couldn't help with that [Eli Arbor:] Can't you see the pa**ion that we stash inside our lines? The love we've always felt and all the wounds we tried to hide? All the times we tried to share experience between us (And y'all n***as acted like ya never even seen us) Believe us when we say that this gift isn't heaven sent Cause we've been through hell, just to fit our own message in [EAGLEBABEL:] To y'all is the pa**ion worth it? To y'all we just blowin smoke To y'all we won't get the funding so what if the dream is broke To y'all it engineering [Eli Arbor:] Or medicine, banking, law And not even athletics [EAGLEBABEL:] Cause that guarantee a draw Our audience only us [Eli Arbor:] To y'all we'll be bona fide [EAGLEBABEL:] To y'all what's a Grammy or a Tony to a Nobel Prize (To y'all we ain't curing cancer Even if we sing something that's keepin the homies out of the way of a .45) Or activate activism, so they ain't h*mophobic [Eli Arbor:] Holding up middle fingers to bathroom signs like "f** your toilets" I'll f** your daughters, hopin her choice destroys you A stab in the back, stab in the back Heard I'm unattractive Heard I'm of a race of illegitimate ba*tards Heard my black skin is anthesis To white purity and innocence in the realest sense (But black kids here buyin into the images of BET) As if they fight against n***as with EBT, bootleg DVDs While pretending that they was weaned on chicken and collard greens Just know that I know who you pretend to be You'll never be like me [EAGLEBABEL:] n***a, I'm freein' me Catharsis ain't a show, my n***a, it's a human need Trust me: this ain't for y'all Like yeah we had to call it, and you know who you are But time ain't lost, we've come far, homie And we ain't gotta matter here, I know you'll remember me when I blow If it took gettin suspended two times for the label, I ain't miss a boat Cause n***a, we got the sail [Eli Arbor:] Cause n***a, we caught the rope Repurpose whatever whenever they tried to hang and choke [EAGLEBABEL & Eli Arbor:] And f** art school, n***a: we see what the studies show [EAGLEBABEL:] Just wait til Chris drop Just wait til I follow Odes [Eli Arbor:] Just wait til places you can't find And Hyperion to take you outside (I ain't never jealous)