[Verse 1] I was a knuckle head that would waste time and earn money On the road to nowhere but Things changed when I've turned twenty Everytime I've held you my inner darkness will turn sunny A baby boy into this world that will learn from me So I had to change a few things and make better decisions Cause I can't do right for my son if I'm dead or in prison I put the dumb sh** aside but drama stuck with me Some things went wrong with your mama so I got full custody I promise to raise you right and prepare you for when you're grown But I was only twenty one raising a toddler on my own But I did what I've had to do and rose to the occasion for you To be placed in my custody was truly amazing I'm usualy chasin' the paper, gone most of the day I hope and I pray you'll understand and know that I stay I work so I can provide for you, it s**s we don't get to play And I'm so sorry that your little brothers both throwed away But Chris I won't go astray, I know you used to people walkin' out They don't deserve you in their life, so you can toss 'em out I'm always here for you, you're destined for an awesome route Know what I'm talkin' 'bout? [Hook x2] Until the end I'll give it my all I'll never go away I'm sorry I can't see you everyday But y'all know this, life is hard Things don't always come together how we plan But I will be the best father that I can [Verse 2] Malik and Solomon lately your lives been full of drama I wanna apologize it didn't work out with your mama We wanted to be a family since then alot has died I just want you to know that I gave it a honest try I never forget the day she took you and left The pain has stucked inside of me, it's like a hook through my chest And when it hits I feel the emptyness, like I'm dying and I'm lifeless I'm trying hard to fight this, I'm crying while I write this Everyday I miss you and it constantly is eating at me Wonderin' if you're ok, you're healthly or you even happy I wanna help you and I pray I don't fail I heard your baby mama knew baby daddy can't stay out of jail That's one of the reasons why when I have you I hate to send you back Cause he is not a good example of how men should act But y'all are smarter than that, so I'mma give it a rest Just tell your mother I still love her and I wish her the best And I'll be watin', lookin' for a two next some of vacation We can make up, for all the missed birthday celebrations And I wish we didn't have to wait But even though your mama moved you to a different state [Hook x2] [Verse 3] Try to find the balance of the work, family and the music You see, God gave me this talent therefore I have to use it When I'm away I miss you more than you could truly know I wish you were with me everytime I'm at the studio But I try to provide better life for you and that's my mission You gonna be men one day, so I gotta teach you the definition It's all about livin' and learnin', every mistake is a lesson Turn the negatives into positives and appreciate your blessings Don't f** with hoes, find good woman And become a good soother, and ?kailor? I wish that I could been part of your life sooner Anytime you need me, whether you're hurt or ever sad I will always be here for you, being a father you never had Cause I love y'all to the d**h of me, and even beyond that I know my life haven't been easy, I'm tryin' to get it on track I never walk out of your life, no matter where your mom's at I'll always have contact