Buddy Wakefield - Gandhi's Autobiography lyrics

Gandhi's autobiography is on my pillow I put it there every morning after making my bed So that I'll remember to read it before falling asleep I've been reading it for six years I'm on chapter two Gary Necci gave me a book when he left my house one time I don't remember the name of it exactly But I think it was called something like, "Kid, you are seriously co-dependent." He thought I might want to flip through and learn about that I feel like it's more important to finish Gandhi's autobiography first I keep forgetting to put, "focus" on my to-do list. I keep forgetting to wander and have fun I know I'm transparent but my insecurities are in all the right places So, go ahead Have a look When I was a child I would chase my babysitter around the house Viscerally sounding out the end of the letter L llllLLLLLLLLLLL ...LLLL Have another look When will we own ourselves completely? Tell me what it is you want me to own And I will take it Damaged goods? You bet. Hit or miss? No doubt about it Misses important social cues? Yes I do. I'm dirty underneath the light Pale on the backside of my bright And feel a little bit stupid about learning a language When I see God Cause that guy...so fast My best friend can speak six languages I still get excited that English took hold Sometimes I don't feel like I'm doing my part on this planet I talk too much If you see me being quiet, don't ask me what's wrong I'm just practicing I often wonder if anyone died because of the pencil I handed to a prisoner at San Quentin State Penitentiary He stuck it in his pocket The point is... The point is there are things wrong with us There are things wrong with me But I do have the ability to split epiphanies with my face on demand Hold me like a birthmark, awkward if you have to I wander, so if you lose me, don't worry After the big tsunami The only structure still standing in the wiped-out village of Malacca Was a statue of Mahatma Gandhi I want to be able to stand like that Even after getting gargled and spanked and spit out by God I want to know that I don't have to fall Every time the sky opens up like a coin return to change me just so little lines on maps can draw circles around my blood To show the scars here in the shape of Gandhi On my pillow To show that I've been here before And tonight is not the last time I'll see the light.