[Produced by: Buck 65] [Verse 1] I was a lot more comfortable being vulnerable and open When I was younger and it wasn't clear if I was or wasn't joking But so much has broken, just like f** it, the fix is in If i can't hide in plain sight anymore I'll just stay hidden It's been a minute since I left this domicile No need to change my outfit, I rock it like it's going out of style It's out of style? Ain't no one here to tell me otherwise It gets more difficult to stay inside during the summertime But most of the time it's just like any other time Avoid personal interaction and human touch, shut the blinds It's been a while since I left this bachelor pad I need to go to the market soon cause the food is going bad The food is bad. I found it's difficult to just cook for one With healthy recipes, well, depending on what book they're from If you want to eat healthy you gotta dirty some dishes The frozen dinners quickly ready to serve and it's so delicious It's not delicious, it's disgusting, but it satiates the hunger with a quickness And hey, at least it's something, at least it's something At most it's nothing, f**'s wrong with me? I don't know, I'm just adjusting It's been a month since I left this cabin The doctor was worried about a fever and other difficulties I've been having She called me on Christmas, that was my gift She was worried I might die, I said “I might die? No sh**” [Verse 2] It's been forever since I said something that I can't wiggle free from If there's anything I cherish in this self-inflicted prison, it's freedom Comes at a cost so I'm private to a fault til I default On the loan for home, it's actually more like a vault No one knows the combo but little old me The head honcho, the holder of the key Alone, but never lonely It's been a millennia since I left this dominion Been in the company of any women At least I got my kittens Spent more cash on my cat than I did myself When he stopped eating, I took him to the vet so they could check his health They put a feeding tube into his neck I said “Please let this work cause if it doesn't I got nothing left” I didn't say that, but they saw that. Cat had my tongue I didn't speak at all, they told me to call back What, it wasn't weird I did nothing but stand right there? With a "fix this, money's no object" type stare It's been a year since I stepped into anyone else's private quarters I've been busy self-diagnosing disorders First world problems, yeah, USA, number one Top of the world, I'm in a tux and cummerbund Welcome everyone to the party of the century It's sure to be one for the books, no doubt, medical ones especially [Outro] My 20's were a roar, my 30's were a blur My 40's, I'm not so sure, but I'mma make ‘em purr My 20's were a roar, my 30's were a blur My 40's, I'm not so sure, but I'mma make ‘em purr My 20's were a roar, my 30's were a blur My 40's I'm not so sure, but I'mma make ‘em purr And I'mma make ‘em purr, but, but I'mma make ‘em purr I'mma make ‘em purr