It's been a long while since the words came quick My heart was narrow and my skin was thick Blessed and i'm cursed by the feeling I can't forget all the sparks I've seen Questioning what I thought I knew If I'd seen it coming i'd have thought it through Built up to ruin by this simple fear Losing everything that i hold dear Maybe I was young or just naive Now I'm not sure what to believe Nothing comes as easy as I thought this was Nothing turns out like the dream of it does I thought I had it all figured out But I can't distinguish truth from the doubt Doesn't come as easy as I thought this was Nothing turns out like the dream of it does