Brockhampton - Milk lyrics

[Verse 1: Ameer Vann] I ain't the same n***a that I once was I lost my f**ing mind and then I fell in love I did a bunch of d** because I couldn't sleep I lost a couple months, I chipped my f**ing teeth And there's a couple women, and they know some things About lies that I done told and sh** that I done said And n***as that I robbed, so I'm real paranoid I have voices in my head [Verse 2: Merlyn Wood] Hi, my name is Merlyn I just applied for food stamps I just moved to California, with my boy band Dropped out of a good school Hippies in my commune I left 'fore the rent was due Used to want a briefcase And a short commute Used to wanna sell coke And whip an Audi Coupe crazy if I did that Wouldn't be talking to you Walking through the pit falls Of a college student Crazy how you get them letters And they make you feel accepted 'til you Walking 'round the campus and You the only African Nobody would pa** and just (?) take the rest and well Take acid trips to find themselves Well... [Hook: Kevin Abstract] I gotta get better at being me (Being who I am) I gotta get better at everything (Being who I am) I just want a friend that I can hang out with (Being who I am) Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with (Being who I am) [Verse 3: Kevin Abstract] Even since I moved out I've been broke Ever since I grew up I've been ugly Ooh, and it get me some dollar Dollar, dollar bills y'all Ever since I left my momma house I've been mad as hell at the world Sometimes you don't gotta rhyme when you feel it Sometimes I barely ever feel a f**ing thing Sometimes I wish that my f**ing phone would f**ing ring And go off, and wake a n***a up I'm used to being sad And I'm used to being down I'm used to being used I miss my boy being around [Hook: Kevin Abstract] I gotta get better at being me (Being who I am) I gotta get better at everything (Being who I am) I just want a friend that I can hang out with (Being who I am) Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with (Being who I am) [Bridge: Matt Champion] Droppin' all I got on this one day I just wanna be somebody someday Droppin' all I got on this one way I just wanna be somebody someday Droppin' all I got on this one day I just wanna be somebody someday Droppin' all I got on this one way I just wanna be somebody someday [Hook: Kevin Abstract] I gotta get better at being me (Being who I am) I gotta get better at everything (Being who I am) I just want a friend that I can hang out with (Being who I am) Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with (Being who I am) [Outro: Dom McLennon] I'm trying to look for motivation of smaller things But baby steps to my atonement when I foster dreams I've been told I'm too transparent with my thoughts sometimes So I wrote songs until they pa**, and I can fall in line I fell apart the moment that you thought you found yourself 'Cause I knew at that point I couldn't be in the equation anymore But moving on with open, broken hearts Will show you everything you need to see about yourself to start moving forward So many things I wanna say that I'm not sure need to be known but everybody swears they f**ing know me So why, don't I lay every card I'm holding on the table At that point I wonder what they'd show me I almost lost my father Still surreal for me to think about Considering how many of my friends have lost theirs I never know if what I'm saying is the right thing If not, I'm ready more than ever for the crosshairs It's all fair when it's not you Some people have angels What if only shadows follow you? And all the ghosts inside that seem to hollow you The branches of the weeping willow start to swallow you And then you realize you're exactly where you're supposed to be The horizon clears You wipe the tears And all the skeletons are ready for your story