Bright Eyes - Hit The Switch lyrics

I'm staring out into that vacuum again From the back porch of my mind The only thing that's alive I'm all there is And I start attacking my vodka Stab the ice with my straw My eyes have turned red as stop lights You seem ready to walk You know I will call you eventually When I wanna talk Till then you're invisible Cause there's this switch that gets hit And it all stops making sense And in the middle of drinks Maybe the fifth or the sixth I'm completely alone At a table of friends I feel nothing for them I feel nothing! Nothing! Well I need a break from the city again I think I'll ship myself back west I got a friend there she says "Hey anytime!" Unless that offers expired I have been less than frequent She's under no obligation To indulge every whim And I'm so ungrateful I take she gives and forgives And I keep forgetting it And each morning she wakes With a dream to describe Something lovely that bloomed In her beautiful mind I say I'll trade you one For two nightmares of mine I have some where I die I have some where we all die I'm thinking of quitting drinking again I know I've said that a couple times And I'm always changing my mind Well I guess I am But there's this burn in my stomach And there's this pain in my side And when I kneel at the toilet And the morning's clean light Pours in through the window Sometimes I pray I don't die I'm a goddamn hypocrite But the night rolls around And it all starts making sense There is no right way or wrong Well you just have to live And so I do what I do And at least I exist What could mean more than this? What would mean more? Mean more? Oh oh oh oh