Brandon Jenkins - Painted on Smile lyrics

I'm tryin' real hard to pretend I'm still listenin' But I'm in a whole nother world if the truth be known 'Cause I can barely follow your conversation It's like the words to a song I don't know And I'm just humming alone I'm sick and tired of this worn out disguise I'm staring out from behind these eyes My hearts been strewn over every mile And I'm just here with a painted on smile Everybody's been worried about my drinkin' They say the look in my eyes have changed now I'm not the guy they've known They don't know just how my world's been sinkin' I'm doin' the best I can to hold on So just leave me alone It's hard enough tryin' to life out a lie I just want to go out and get high I'm knowin' things that should never be known And I just want to go out and get stoned Everybody keeps askin' the same old questions Where you goin'? Where you been? It's all the same to me I'm just tryin' real hard to make a connection And try to make some sense of it all All the insanity I'm sick and tired of this worn out disguise I'm staring out from behind these eyes My hearts been strewn over every mile And I'm just here with a painted on smile I'm tryin' real hard to pretend I'm still listening But I'm in a whole nother world if the truth be known 'Cause I can barely follow your conversation It's like the words to a song I don't know And I'm just humming along I'm sick and tired of living a lie And I just want to go out and get high I wish to God that I never had known I just want to go out and get stoned