Braille - Surgical lyrics

It's just a friendly game of operation Look at me now just laying here [?] Sometimes you gotta bleed And smell your own blood So cut me open If this is a surgery I'm just strapped down to a operation bed And everyone can see where I bled And cry when I bleed And take turns cuttin away To extreme for tv the camera cuts away Take the focus off me when I feel the most broken I think about [?] and tabloid gossip Phantom of the opera zombies and monsters Before we put our heads high [?] double it or nothing We can choose only one side I'm totally tongue tied Crumbilin my words Stay humble and serve But I stumble and swerve Crumble when I hurt I'm not numb to the pain I could feel it but I gotta let it wash down the drain I am not the first man to walk in these shoes Many different roads and pathways to choose Free will yeah the choice is yours Can't walk by sight Cause my eyes get sore when I really want to soar Fly above this Fight against lust and discover what love is [?] Lord please cloth me in righteousness Look away I don't want you to see me like this I don't want to walk away from this life prematurely I can never return once once I leave to early I'm living for God to be a pleasure of him But it's hard to bear fruit [?] the season I'm in I refuse to let the deceiver win I'm the light of the world even when it gets dim I'm the salt of the world even when I'm salt and pepper My lonely heart s so broken and tender Join the club upgrade your membership Get saved before the grave is your residence But I would not reside in the [?] With my bones no would never leave alone I feel like I'm trapped in a nightmare And I can't wake up until the princess will kiss me [?] When I'm full of self doubt envy me Fill me up I'm on bended knee When I repent and turn the temptation flees I am not afraid of the darkness The darkness is afraid of me The heartless they envy me So there is no room for envy or jealousy in me What's gonna matter when it's over? I carry that weight upon my shoulder Who I am as a man a husband a father and son Striven to hear well done In all of the above Cause I only got one life And I can't do it over