Braidz MC - Paranoid lyrics

[Intro: Sampled] Sometimes we notice coincidences like, "Oh there were a couple of cars on the street" and we just move on and forget about it But for someone with Schizophrenia these experiences take on a vastly different kind of feeling You might notice there were 3 red cars on the street and instead of just forgetting about it you start thinking "Well why is there 3 red cars on the street, maybe it has something to do with me? Maybe these people are coming to harm me"... [Verse 1: Braidz] Sit in awe of the art and just listen As I'm pouring my heart through the system You see I'm so Paranoid I rarely get around In the last 3 years I've barely left the house Old friends like, "Come out man, let's drink some shots" I'm like "Nah man, I don't think I can take it off" Straight lying - 'cause I don't even have a job No house, no direction and over Twenty One Man, I just want my head to somehow work with me Starting to lose Patience like a run down surgery Struggling for a feed off some cents that I don't make Everyone say's the new centerlink laws sound like a joke ay But they've always called me a f**in' joke too These wolves in sheep's clothing just go with the flow dude My aim's a career not a job but my tolerance has ran out So I'm putting everything into music I'm just hoping that i'll stand out [Chorus: Mista Hood] Part of me wants to be Part of me wants to see But part of me is all of me And all of me is Paranoid X2 [Verse 2: Braidz] Now I'm Paranoid about my chick's too, Mad because I wish dude I never would have gone where it began, see this sh**'s true My first love? She f**ed me, I mean literally fu*kED me! Had a gang-bang with three dudes came home said she loved me That's the type of sh** that leaves you mentally scarred That's the type of sh** that you may never get past That's the type of sh** that leads to Heroin, Shard Stepping in bars with Eccy's to pa** 'round 'cause your dead in the heart Everyone asks why I'm like this - well there's the reason Thought I'd solve it leaving dudes with their heads all bleeding So I took a bat to the scene, and bashed up some teens But I ended up feeling more crap when I leaved Leaved? I mean left, like I did to that scumbag Saw black and lashed out but it just left me with cutbacks Now I forever watch the movements of any chick I'm with I'm constantly feeling played and just wanting to slit my wrist 'cause a-... [Chorus: Mista Hood] x2 [Verse 3: Braidz] My aim's to grace the stage in nations places you have never seen... So while you chase big dreams, I chase big memories I stay crafting these bars, always hoping that I'll make it 'Cause the only time I feel good is at shows or in the basement But, players are hating 'cause I came up on gay sh** They can't accept the fact that now I'm making my name stick 'Til they go back on their word like I literally played it Wordplay for days you just didn't get what Braidz spits This version of success isn't what I envisioned it just makes stress Sick of these lame heads who just listen to what their mates said Tell me my song's sh** before they even think to play it Blacklisted by my scene using the internet to make it... Then again that's probably in my head as well But doctor's give me med's, and they never help I know it's in my mind I know I need to get out more From this day forward I won't let this disease be my downfall! [Chorus: Mista Hood] x2