I'm staring out into the air again And all the years I've spent alone I know it's coming, if not quickly I always end up on my own I gave up smoking, I gave up coffee But I'm still not a bigger man I still get swallowed by the petty I'm still afraid to trust my friends I'm still afraid to talk to strangers I'm still afraid to make a joke I still think I'm stupid and you hate it Still can't be honest with my folks I'm impatient and I'm pushy I'm so stubborn and I know If I try my hardest I still won't change this But I can hide it if I mope But I can still walk out my front door I can still get on my bike I can still take gulps of fresh air When it's cooling down at night Yeah, I can run up to the river and throw rocks Along the top And if they sink instead of skim the surface The next day I still wake up And take a second just to space out Try to build a better home Take my faults and say "ok then" And call up everyone I know Before I'm spending time alone