Blue Rain - My First Time (A Cautionary Tale) lyrics

[Verse 1] I was only 12, in my mind I was grown Always by myself, just these rhymes and some poems He's driving by, looking fly, pulling over to the side Thought he had the cutest ride, all white, pink stripes Didn't even think twice, he was prince charming me Forever be in harmony, the ignorance of innocence Should've been alarming me, he said that he was 20 Bout to be my first and he'd been with plenty Should've swerved into reverse but the love that he promise Blinded to the findings that he wasn't being honest Just saw my Adonis and his Pocahontas The fairytale fantasy makes who*es from madonnas Movies and the songs showed booties in some thongs Plus the rush to be touched was too much I went along Thought I crushed on what he said, really lust that filled my head If I sincerely loved him dearly why'd it give me so much dread? [Verse 2] So where were those fireworks? I don't know, just kinda hurt No pleasure had been measured instead I heard some liar's words "Forever be together, birds'll sing, confetti thrown The TV it misleads me cause the truth was never shown More like a brothel than some romantic novel When p**n becomes the norm we conform, never warned It's all an act, matter fact, I was disillusioned Misconstruing love for s**, that is what this culture says Back at home, all alone, oh sh** pick up the phone Dial tone, voicemail, why do all my choices fail? Question had me stressing, I guess it's just a lesson learned That I should've waited because it's something sacred A spaceship out the matrix, the places it can take us Or to the depths of shame with no one left to blame He was ruthless, I was clueless to this stupid adolescent game I got played, a big mistake, can't unbreak, no second takes It kinda s**s to give it up, my first time had been betrayed