BleekFuture - Self Doubt lyrics

Intro I hear voices in my head saying all kind of things…. I swear to God I don't understand em' (verse 1) I'm battling demons Same thing that happened to Steven It's hard to believe in Bravery I'm loosing the feeling I'm counting sheep jus to go to bed It might be more than complicated My life ain't as dope as it seems Sometimes I feel like I'm making too much excuses Excuse me "I was way too young" That's another excuse How do I tell if I am loosing Or if pushing me way too hard Should I be getting ma juice My soul is trapped in another age I pray it ain't hell That'll be a bigger baggage 6 foot cell Punishment for being carnage Or maybe for being Savage Don't mind me I'm being honest Self-esteem on zero Who could be the hero I pray to God he make the beat speak through Brilo Seem to question everything else We think that we know Is everything the way it really it seems Man foreal tho (Hook) Did I let myself down (did I let myself down) Did I let myself down (did I let myself down) Did I let myself down [I'm tranna battle Self-Doubt] (verse 2) Pills and potions Deals extortions if you feel Dat intercourse dat hit da cause Had to heel dat Worthless self that stayed in the past There's a reason I hate myself Not! Pity i dropped dat My family is not a family it's dysfunctional I'm not accepting the service if it's correctional I'm rational now I cleared my mind of emotion now My life is crazy Sometimes I only wish all this was fictional But Damn this is real life How can I be a better person I need more hype I thought I had to chase the money Then I missed flights Ben10 with no power only ten fingers no watch How can I use my five fingers combined Without masturbating First I went all out then decided rapping Grab a gun and shot exactly where I was aiming I thought I saw a vision of Jesus with eyes flaming I'm being blinded by the ghosts in the past I try to sprint while running But I couldn't run fast I keep looking back to whose chasing But I'm swallowing dust I'm a citizen here on earth But y'all treat me like a freaking guest (Hook) Did I let myself down (did I let myself down) Did I let myself down (did I let myself down) Did I let myself down [I'm tranna battle Self-Doubt] (verse 3) Stepping stones on other levels got me switch my feeling Don't be scared when you approach i chased the demons it's still me Time is money if I'm wasting yours then please don't k** me If the holy ghost exist then this the moment fill me ....... Who could ever thought that a ngga without nothing will be standing on the top of the skyscraper Who could ever thought that a ngga could start something, we'll infact the DNA is of a born rapper I got the sun in my pocket stars in my drawer If you talking paper then ngga I'm boutta show up Yellow got me telling ma nggas to neva slow up Poodie got me flexing on exes I never blow up