Blastah Beatz - Angel in My life lyrics

[Phone Conversation] B: Hello Mike: Ayo b what's hood yo B: What's going on mike Mike: Aye I've been trying to get in touch with mouse, you spoke to him lately B: What you mean I spoke to him you ain't hear Mike: Naw B: n***a got dragged out his house in a f**ing straight jacket Mike: For what B: Cause he talking about k**ing himself and taking people with him Mike: You lying B: Then they found mad d** in his system man this n***a's gone he's lost yo [Verse One] Let look behind the Swarovski crystals (and what) Behind the 50 caliber's and the pistols (go ahead) Misuse pardon self gotta excuse my issues For me just to have them a ritual But I ain't as crazy as I seem to be It's just that nothing is the way that is seems to me (and I'm feeling) I'm feeling less than drugging him up with anti depressants (so what) In essence I'm threatening my character a**essment (Look here) Truth told I figure a few hoes mixed with some new clothes Should cover my loop holes If I'm misunderstood or misguided (I mean it) Started when they pa**ed the L said just try it (I mean when) When I don't want to get out of bed I just fight it (sometimes) Some times I don't eat for days I just diet Only live one so if I just like it I ain't even checking the price I just buy sh** I'm thinking that will just hide it But all it takes is life to ignite sh** Thinking bout d**h wondering how I'm gone go I can't be insane for just wanting to know In my head I die often (I use to) I use to think of suicide often Good suit on and a nice coffin But that ain't something I would try myself Still they locked me in this room all by myself I need a I think I need a [Phone Conversation] Mike: I can't even believe this sh** you saying right now Yo that don't even sound like mouse B: just like we was at the club the other night This n***a ran out the club start shooting my man up Mike: word!!! B: For no reason then this n***a talking about he's the only one who can save him The apocalypse is coming and he's the savior of all mankind Mike: that's crazy B: that n***a ain't his self no more [Verse Two] They say my symptoms are aggressive They title me a compulsive obsessive slash manic depressive They tryina tell me that I'm a con and I game n***as That's one reason I don't even entertain n***as Not important who they are I won't name n***as They like to say I have a tendency to blame n***as I keep f**ing sh** up but keep trying (Listen) If ya'll would just trust me I wouldn't just keep lying (Listen) If I had bread I wouldn't be in debt Let me clarify get in-depth I feel like every time I been less Whenever I invest Whenever I am set I feel like I'm inept I try to make them understand but they just won't ac-cept I'm telling 4 million other I am the temp-late There ain't a book that tells a story there is no index We got some different type of cuts and no there not princess All this indigess seemingly endless how I take in stress When I always went best Aching in my chest Yet and still it won't break me (why) They say the room's padded for my own safety (Naw) But the cushion don't soften sh** They locked the door but still they let my thoughts in it And no one can tell me why I'm here I can't even see the sky from here I guess my time is near [Phone Conversation] Mike: ayo we really need to go see that n***a yo B: hum... I don't know we could do that but last time I saw him He wasn't looking good they had him in the room I.V.'s all in his arm looking like he was in a daze like his body was there Mike: you spoke to him B: Mentally he was gone they wouldn't let me near him They had a guard by him on 24 hour watch Had all these prescriptions he was taking Mike: damn yo that's ain't even him B: I don't know what's going on with that n***a I just gotta keep him in my prays hope everythings good