Black Lodge - Dissonance lyrics

"Painted numbly pacing rooms Drowining in deepsea sleep Dancing a sweeter life in Slow pursuit of the evergreen Lustre radiating blood Veiled in crimson monochrome Pa**ified dissolved in Rust red corrosion" Whisper to me unattainable one I stand a beggar to her She the featureless river of all I know to want "Reach for my image Let our bauty resound The want of me is yours to feel but Myself is mine alone" In the dissonance of desire she dances with my demons And walks with my dispair She is the emptiness inside me, the rainbow out of reach Yet she calls for me to reach out for her again, I reach for her again By her effeminate touch, love pain and beauty are released as one What is she but my own creation, all what life fails to give Her name overpowering want Current drawing me to nothing hungry I follow Dissonance of desire, of defence I am deprived I am deprived of power to love presently Stripped of fear and foolish pride Leave me To let her go is d**h I have nothing except sardonic me "Sink into deep" I'm drowning "Name be lost for years" Be silent "Submit your will to me and sleep" You shall be forgotten "And what if What if all it takes is hope" I grow tired in the search, I grow tired of waiting Hope is what life has granted me, lies is what hope proves to be A faint whisper lingers on How can I denounce her name, capture her soul Her face will change with my lust Her voice the source of grief, essence of life The rainbow's black in my eyes