Bishop Lamont - Be A Better Man lyrics

[Verse One] [Apathy]: I've been sinning since I was seaman swimming fiending to be born Didn't respect women, my wisdom wouldn't be formed Till my father dropped knowledge on me, now I'm so torn Read the Bible during day, then at night I watch p**n I need to transform, take the bull by the horn But it's hard when I'm hard and the p**y look warm It's harder when I'm broke and that coke make money Even harder when I'm hungry and there's air in my tummy My outfit is bummy, I try to avoid greed But this money in my pocket give me everything I need The hoes and the clothes take a toll on my soul But the soles in my Nike Air bubble got a hole And my goal is the gold then the silver but I'm told That it's old and a platinum grill will keep your drink cold 31 years old and I'm still being controlled By the devils on the television eating at my soul I'm ducking 5-0, get a s*ut to try blow Listening to Lil' Wayne on my stere-stereo A sinner, I know, but I figure I'll grow One day when I'm grey and my life goes slow [Hook] [Apathy]: I'm trying to be a better man Trying to do the best I can Trying to come up with a plan, f** the money in my hand Gotta find a way to pull my soul up out the garbage can [Verse Two] [Bishop Lamont]: Depression is a motherf**er I said depression is a motherf**er Can't understand how, don't understand why Wake up sometimes feeling like you wanna die Chest all heavy Mind all froze Bullet in your brain s** some pills, overdose Looking at the bottle, do you really want to take 'em? Think it over all night, in the morning DJ AM Afraid to live Afraid to die Can't tell if God listening, it's hard to yell that high So you hit him on Skype, can't get no reply Yet the devil live next door always waving hi Is he punishing me? Is he running from me? Is God real, are y'all just f**ing with me? My prayers don't get answered, my life is in a slump I'm a walking portapotty, whole world take a dump My friends ain't sh**, cause I ain't sh** And the b**h that I'm with, she really ain't sh** And you are what you eat, so she's really a dick You good for nothing s*ut But she keep me warm Make me feel like I'm alive when she lay in my arms Even though it's all a lie cause she don't want to go home This ain't love, it's more of a convenience So we pretend we in love, in real life we don't see it Pull a Sixth Sense and just cover our eyes Hope the ghost go away that keep haunting our lives But you know it don't stop, it's never gon' cease Will you find peace of mind or just rest in peace? [Hook] [Apathy]: I'm trying to be a better man Trying to do the best I can Trying to come up with a plan, f** the money in my hand Gotta find a way to pull my soul up out the garbage can