Beyond Shadows - Scorched, Scalded, Blistered lyrics

At this point, I wish I was in my personal cell, In myself watching everything. I am sick, Can't you tell? In my eyes, I cannot see my paradise. Now why can't I die? It's all I wish for. Give it to me now. Why am I burning? Why am I on fire? Can you not see my desire? Moving on with life, Pa**ion is replaced with dissension. An avid display of affection, Now filled with contention How does this affect a person? It is different for everyone. Some weep and suffer while some claim retribution. The path I tread down, Led me to no solution. No sense of dissolution Would heed my call. I proceeded to fall But what I was not ready for Was the insight that would shatter me. And conduct me to take matters into my own hands. I bide my time in prevarication, Parched dry as a bone. War! Wage War! My rage roars, My soul left me No! I am on fire, I see it now, Why I am dying. So painful. I never realized this much, This is what I had asked for. I am cured. Can't you tell. I open my eyes, I see my paradise, in blaze Suicide, a final thought. Not one I'd like to end on, But you took my life. Without a will, You have left me.