Before Braille - Merry Christmas, I'm Cheating lyrics

Merry Christmas, I'm Cheating And I have been for some time I would say that I'm sorry But it's in my blood Merry Christmas, I'm cheating I can't get her out of my mind I would say that I'm sorry But it's too much fun So when you sleep in our bed tonight Know that it is shared sometimes On the basis of moderation I divide my time Well, I've waited to tell you 'cause I can't handle your screams And all that comes with that, tears and all the aftermath Merry Christmas, I'm cheating Well I guess I hid the signs Now you know something about me After all this time And I can't live without her And how she waits for my next line I'm just jealous of freedom That I left behind We were foolish together I would fix this but I can't There is something about her That you'll never have And I've waited to tell you 'cause I can't handle your screams And all that comes with that, tears and all... Just a victim of consequence Well at least you're my second best I'm the victim here, if you've noticed dear You don't appeal to all the needs I have Merry Christmas, I'm cheating But it's only in my mind You know I'll always love you.. at convenient times