Beautiful Eulogy - Still Life lyrics

[Intro] Rain's outside, it wants to come in Kind of lonely in here, sure could use a friend Or two, but on second thought, go away Whoever keeps knocking please go away Nobody's home so please go away Haven't had the chance to wake up and live my today [Verse 1] Here I am stuck in the same pattern since yesterday And I'll be here for a while if I might estimate Repetition's my best friend and time is my enemy Kept me bound and trapped to reality's relativity An ice statue with cemented legs and the flesh left open When the blade meets the skin hope the pain will coat it 'cause I checked and left my feelings at the door No longer can I measure what a heart beat is for Self destruct mode has triggered the downfall all around me Seeping over to the lives of the others in my surroundings Want to stay in the here and now but not so lucky For my neighbors always knock on the door that hates company It became a crowd when I saw my own reflection Felt bombarded and still life is being stolen from my essence Cut off communication between the outside world and I Entered inwards to realize I could no longer cry [Hook] Held in the same place, preventive I'm Keeping tomorrow from ever coming and ruining mine No longer fear, no longer care, no longer want to cry All I want's away had from life and time Held in the same place, preventive I'm Keeping tomorrow from ever coming and ruining mine No longer fear, no longer care, no longer want to cry All I want's away had from life and time [Verse 2] Swallow gulps off the instinct the way I like to drink It's the last cough and now I think it's the best of me Can't seem to make choices, but I'm in a sober state So I break for it's borderline and slip through the gates Sacrifice my own freedom for a gla** half empty Measure my bad habits and addicts, of what I have plenty Just project them onto the oncoming years from here Will they be greedy with open arms, or bruises or tears Stop measuring my failures of long term past Man, I'm what I have become, and all that will not last Tad and torn edges brushed against my existence Everyone left their mark on me what is this Stuck in the same frame, tracks on the same trade A deer in headlights, but cannot move before pain came Some say it's selfish living for your own amazement True, It's slowly and it's painful, but I want it, need it, crave it And [?] turns the car, see the shavings all around me And the bloody pool of mood, while my headaches keep pounding [Hook x2] Held in the same place, preventive I'm Keeping tomorrow from ever coming and ruining mine No longer fear, no longer care, no longer want to cry All I want's away had from life and time Held in the same place, preventive I'm Keeping tomorrow from ever coming and ruining mine No longer fear, no longer care, no longer want to cry All I want's away had from life and time