Bear Arms - The Apple and the Tree lyrics

I've got this fire in my head and this fever in my mouth. I've got a bitter tasting memory of abandonment and doubt. I've got this fire in my head and this fever in my mouth. I live a never ending lesson where the world won't let me put this out Twenty years, what's left to fear? Then you go looking for redemption. So many years have come and been then you go search for your salvation from all your sins Father, how can I forgive myself? Father, how can I forgive myself for becoming you?