Push me out from the darkness, to a sky the color blue Somewhere someones finding happiness while i'm still here So hung up on you... ... Nothing is real... I want you to know That i'm not alright When you tear open my chest I'll try not to flinch Or make promises You taught me that... I'm still losing whats left of my self esteem And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my... Day dreams... The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most So I'll bite my tounge till it bleeds, and I doubt you'll even know The easiest things to fake are feeling, to fool someone else And i've been tricked for so long by you that I spent the last few months In my own hell A failed apology, a day to late and now I see All you really want to see me is dangle neck first from a tree What would you need me for You've got friends galore And all you'll ever be to me Stupid, lying excuse for a person (i've also heard this line as "a waste of time and nothing more") I could call, but I know that You won't be there to pick up the phone You dont have time for me ... I could call, but I know... Look at the phone Have time for me... (time to shred) I hate myself For loving you like this I hate myself for hating myself Just enough to love you Just enough to love you --- .