Bayonet - Harsh lyrics

Her lashes stuck With palm prints to my face I never wanted to be What I always hate A new scent From old regrets Like the backhand From my father's glance And I'm crucified If I believed The cross meant anything Oh heaven sent him? Well I forgot him It didn't help my mother pay the rent And in the view of 'Perfect Town' I was the ba*tard with a broken crown I'm just trying to figure out Why I did this. (Why I did this) Believe me (Believe me) You need me Cause I'm f**ed up And I'm just trying to figure out Why I'm so in love with doubt Why am I so afraid? What is it that keeps me up at night? What is it that keeps me up at night? The pa**ion the feel The tear in the seal The lies and the lies And the lies that I tell Why did I do this? Why oh why oh why? And how can I fix this How could how could I? And I'm just trying to figure out Why I'm so in love with doubt Why am I so afraid of myself? What is it that keeps me up at night? What is it that keeps me up at night? The pa**ion the fail The blood in the sail The lies and the lies And the lies that I tell I'm still so afraid (Give me!) Of the life I'd like to live (A reason to go on!) I'm still so afraid (Give me!) Of the life I'd like to live (A reason to go on!) Give me a reason to go on alone I'm still afraid And all I ever wanted was to not feel alone All I ever wanted was to find my way home All I ever wanted was to not feel alone But that's exactly what I got Cause that's exactly what I'm owed