Barren - Start lyrics

[Intro] I was barely a teenager the first time I tried to k** myself [Sampled from Kevin Breel: Confessions of a depressed comic] For a long time in my life, I felt like I'd been living two different lives Because the truth is, in the life that only I see, who I am, who I really am, is someone who struggles intensely with depression Because there's this pretty popular misconception that depression is just being sad when something in your life goes wrong When you break up with your girlfriend, when you lose a loved one, when you don't get the job you wanted But that's sadness, that's a natural thing, that's a natural human emotion Real depression isn't being sad when something in you life goes wrong; real depression is being sad when everything in your life was going right [Sampled from Sam Berns: My philosophy for a happy life] You know, I know what I'm missing out on But instead, I choose to focus on the activities that I can do for things that I am pa**ionate about, like scouting, or music, or comic books [Sampled from Sean Stephenson: The prison of your mind] Lesson number one Never believe a prediction that doesn't empower you [Verse 1] (Omen) Don't tell me f**ing sh** Stop puling on my strings I tried telling you before But you just won't seem to quit I'm not throwing it I'm making myself known and I'm ignoring inside tones The race just started here we go I'm not stopping 'till we dead I'm f**ing in