Balance and Composure - I Tore You Apart In My Head lyrics

I tore you apart in my head Locked up in my room again Left you for broken and there you were choking You got on with all your friends And that's when I knew you were dead A haunting reminder of when I swallowed my own eyes to see what was inside You broke me with your ignorance I can't believe in what you're telling me And I'd like to breathe And oh my God, don't lose hope for me I'm curious I ask only questions Ear to the floor Every night I listen I can't tell if you're being obvious But I hear only nothing Is that what you are to us in silence Hate in these veins all again And all that it leads to is sin f** what you told me It all leads to smoking Alone in my room in the end And that's when I knew I was dead Worried sick from all that you said Thank God I'm leaving all your deceiving You broke me with your ignorance Can't see past the bright light up in the sky Never got it quite right Never know, never try