BADMiND - Never as Good as the First Time lyrics

It's never as good as the first time No matter how hard you try You'll never catch the same high As you did the first time It's never as good as the first time No matter how hard you try You'll never catch the same high As you did the first time The hairs are standing on my arm again And I can feel it in the pit of my stomach, it's finally the end I've been around the world in search of a home I've met so many different people but still I'm sitting here alone I could hide the pain and disregard the danger Finding comfort in a one night stand with a perfect stranger And I feel I've made my mind already I'll never see this person again, sh**, she never should have met me I used to sit in my grandpa's arm chair He's been dead ten years but the chair is still there Is this the legacy I'm leaving behind? Am I too old to have a dream? Have I missed my time? I'm not ready for this next stage I hit my thirty's I thought I'd be the one who'd never age I thought sh** would straighten out by then But I find myself even more f**ed up as a grown man And society's as sick as me My perversion couldn't compare to the sh** I see on tv It's never as good as the first time No matter how hard you try You'll never catch the same high As you did the first time It's never as good as the first time No matter how hard you try You'll never catch the same high As you did the first time It's never as good as the first time No matter how hard you try You'll never catch the same high As you did the first time And every day I'm in a state of shock I can't make eye contact, I'm afraid to talk Sometimes I sit and observe and hear people conversate And it's no wonder why me and them, we can't relate And I'm feeling like I sold my soul I know I said it a million times before, but sh** I'm losing control I can't let go, and now I'm sitting in court My wife left me for another, now we're getting divorced And I'm feeling like I'm stuck in a cage I'm provoked to react, but demonized for my rage We broke up for good and didn't shed no tears We've been living together for over seven years And I'm sitting here thinking of everything that you said to me And best friends became mortal enemies There's no chance we'll ever turn it around It became a runaway train and then it burned to the ground It's never as good as the first time No matter how hard you try You'll never catch the same high As you did the first time It's never as good as the first time No matter how hard you try You'll never catch the same high As you did the first time It's never as good as the first time The first time The last time...