Baby J - "Warrior's Pain" lyrics

VERSE ONE-- I act tha fool to hide a "Warriors Pain", im on tha fastrack ignoring the lanes, ii fell victim to adoring the game, but, before money came, ii fell victim to exploring the same, imploring mah brain, to block out the shame, refuse to complain.. cause through the length of this sh**, ii was blessed to have gained strength, & im fit, for any future happenings sh**, ii can take on the world if God lets me.. since, daddy departed, im left broken hearted, nd started.. marijuana, tah take mah mind off all the drama, sumtimes ii wonda, if ii end mah life am ii gonna, be missed.? or juss be another, crazy muthaf**a that took his life ahead of time, ii suffer, emotional wounds for mah brother that never got a chance to live, and soon was another, dead in the church, momma descovered, only eleven, now in heaven she lurks, worse things got even worst, can't explain buht damn it hurts, to kno, that ii wannah go, but can't pull tha trigger so, ii get down on my knees and put my hands in the prayin position, Lord please, relieve my thoughts, give me peace, im wishin, ii was never born, happiness was torn, from my soul, missin the pieces that once had made be whole, ii dont kno, but maybe God is ignoring mah name, or im meant to overcome a Warriors Pain..