B-Mac - Can I Live lyrics

[Verse 1] Life at the bottom, I got so many problems but I don't know to solve em so this pain is deep Friday nights I'm the one the people came to see, and they gon love me while I can't be beat But they don't see the everyday struggle I go through that still keeps me awake My mom is trying but them habits getting harder to break And my sisters starving. Swear we got a lot that's on our plate And I'm out here moving weight, when you gon let us catch a break I'm tryna get this money to feed her At arms reach but feeling like it's always running from me And It's harder than it looks, the Feds gunning for me. And every night my demons coming for me They said that selling easy money but they lied to me But I kept trying since I saw my momma crying for me 18 years I ain't seen my fathers face 18 years that you let these tears roll down her face But she got better man. But she still got her problems She keep downing shots of vodka thinking maybe she can solve em But that just make harder on us And I feel so distant even tho it started with us Ain't thinking right, like I guess that this just ain't the life for me Contemplating suicide i guess it's the night for me My girl said she loved me, gotta go our separate ways So suicide might be the only way to end these desperate days But when she not around to talk I don't know just how to feel. I was tired of breaking down so I tried to swallow pills I couldn't do it, so I sat up and just cried How I thank god in these hard times [Hook] Can I live? [Verse 2] 16 with a beautiful smile, beautiful style. Good grades. Shes beautiful girl. Why is she crying But she got her own demons she's been fighting every season. She can't seem to defeat em so they sticking around Now she's screaming for help but nobody can hear her So she just cried to herself. Don't see herself in the mirror Never revealing her secrets her struggles seem non existent She's too pretty for problems so she's just hiding her feelings She know God has got a plan so she gon ride until the end Her boyfriend playing around but she can't find another man She just young and she in love but her mom don't understand Seems like all her friends are fake so she just tryna find a friend Well baby girl Ima ride for you And if it came to take a bullet I would die for I acknowledge you're effort. You got my acceptance Not too often I invite people into my perspective Last person I let in left me you'd think I'd learn my lesson But since the first impression i knew you'd be a blessing You were beaten and bruised, I was lost and confused But who would think the road less travel would leave me walkin with you I never knew you was a angel in disguise But I now I see god had left angel in my eyes Every day I thanked the lord, I wasn't looking when I found you Now every step I take I'm thankful that I found you