Azure The Paradox - Affliction lyrics

[Intro: C-John] Yeah, C-John here Affliction It gets me every time [Verse 1: C-John] Yeah it hurt me to hear momma was behind bars I make this music through the pain and through the art They told me keep going maybe you'll be a star Mom's friends came home said she got locked up Man it put me in my feelings got me rocked up I thought life was over that day and the world ended I tried to hold the tention i tried not to mention So i moved to my dads kept me happy but really sad I thought it wasn't real life i thought it was a movie Apparently it wasn't i said apparently it wasn't Couple months of jail I get a letter Nice art nice stuff it made me a bit better But still I was in my emotions I was in my thoughts I was really hopeless Ight lets move onto my dad Thinking about my other siblings makes me so sad Anger rushed through his veins he was so mad I got things to mention about me on what I see What I wanna be is myself I would like money but I don't want wealth It makes you miserable spoiled and just another brat Times were hard when I look into the past Times are hard now i asked myself will it ever last I took it like a champ put the bars down and write these facts [Verse 2: Azure The Paradox] Swinging back with no bat leave a n***a with no back All these motherf**ers chase me im bout to run it back Can't relax just facts and the bully ain't lax My pain is 3d see sh** like its Imax Ain't no help for me Just sit back and watch I wanna f**ing k** him I got homicidal thoughts He broke my arm I wanna break his neck Ain't no respect For a speck on the planet Dammit you sit there is silence You approve of this violence You dont see my crying? Im fighting off tyrants I need strength and guidance So many emotions your hiding your lying to me I cry for you to save me I'd die if you stay waiting I can't live on like this Too much pain I can't exist Alone in this world With nobody to help Afflicting and hitting Im harming myself Just leave me alone in my personal hell Gonna be two times humanity fell