Aviators - Monster lyrics

So beautiful and more than I could ever dream Somehow I thought you'd see that I wasn't what I seemed Time went by and I fell so in love with you Leading myself to believe what wasn't the truth It feels like I fell asleep And woke up in a nightmare Fallen into a world of chaos You're the reason that I'm here When you're the only one I've dreamed of You turned me away Turning me into the monster I am today I abandoned order when you broke my heart that day It then occurred to me chaos is the only way When all you thought of me is a beast that can't be tamed The monster that you saw me for is the monster I became I am not the same Because of what you did to me Now I'll show you That I've become what you thought me to be If I can't have you then I'll throw the world away Only you are to blame For turning me into the monster I am today